When the hell will we grow up??????? Jan 28

I am quite a bit moved by two news that i read today on ibnlive.com

1) A true son of soil sacrificing his life for country (http://www.ibnlive.com/news/day-after-getting-award-capt-dies-fighting-militants/57521-3.html).

2) Devil Politicians rather than focusing on the problems are pulling eachother’s legs (http://www.ibnlive.com/news/who-are-the-minority-bjp-wants-a-definition/57555-3.html)

When someone says whats the biggest thing that Dr. Ambedkar saheb forgot to include in the Constitution, I’ll say he’s forgot to incorporate a system where right people are 
at right places. At one end we have the army officers and police personnel who have so many true Indians in 
their ranks who r ready to sacrifice just about anything for the country.  On the other hand we have our politicians who are the devils in disguise of human beings just interested in their own assets. For them social service, people’s welfare, etc. do no have any importance…. Sorry for them its not important for most part of their 5 year ministerial tenure except in the last couple of months. Thats the time when dog comes begging for any bit of help to each person’s door step….

Its pretty surprising that our history boasts of innumerable number of freedom fighters who selflessly 
sacrificed their lives for the country. And today, its hard for us to find handful of good politicians.

I think thats where Dr. Amberkar saheb faltered. The path to political success passes through so much crap and shit that when a person gets along quite a bit, he’s no longer is an Indian (who lives and dies for his country) but is a pseudo-Indian who is essentially a _____ (incomplete)

India’s tour of Australia 2007

I have pretty good memories of the previous tour of Team India to Australia in 2003. Everyone expected a whitewash but the team with loads of talent oozing to deliver got its act together and we witnessed one of the most matched high level cricket which was played with loads of passion and true sportsmanship. In the first Test the captain led from the front. Ganguly scored a classy century and in the first innings we bettered the Aussie score. The first test was drawn the Indians started to feel it easy. Ganguly also proved a point that he and his team are no pushovers. Playing in Australia is no mean task as bigger teams that went there with loads of promise came back with nothing but big defeats and shame. The good thing about that team was that each one knew its task. The then openers Sehwag and Chopra was a good combo of aggressive batsman and solid defender. Dravid came one down and solidified the innings. Sachin initially was out of sorts but came in his own in the last test where India crossed 700. Ganguly provided his presence all around and for Laxman Australia is his bunny. For bowlers Pathan was a new find and Agarkar too was living upto his promise that on bouncy tracks he can be lethal. All in all a well fought serious which we should have won had Parthiv Patel not goofed up. I loved the statement that Dravid said. That all were happy that we drew the series but while leaving Sydney in bus, all thought that it was a serious which they could have won.

This time round we have a team which has a lot aged cricketers but the  competition for each place is fierce. For me no one except Ganguly and Jaffer can say that they are pretty secured. Positions and tasks of most of the guys might be changed. The Aussies too are charged up to take revenge of the 20-20 loss both in India and in WC. lets c. looks like the ingredients are all there for a spicy series. I hope both teams live up to the hype and I and you are the real gainers of an exciting cricket series.

Test 1:

 Stage was set for a great test match…. Hayden and Jaques started with a 150 run stand but the the Indians fought their way after lunch and restricted aussies below 350…. couldn’t have expected better…. But then the so called ‘fragility’ of Indian lineup came back…. indians bowled out under 200 but there we saw the glimpses of great class and exuberance present inside the little master-blaster Sachin…. Ganguly too was at his best before he threw it away…. Aussies then amassed a big total in Third innings posting target of 499 and the Indian team trembled once again…. The match finished on fourth day itself…. Aussies 1-nil up

Test 2:

First Day First Session: Both Aussie openers back in the pavilion…. This was a big thing as these two had 150 run stand in the first innings in the first test….. Half an hour into the second session and aussies are 131/6….. yeaahhhhhhhhhh… this is the chance to get the series back on track and the lifeline to get 1-1 on the series…. Awesome but then the rub of green went against us…. Symonds clearly nicking one outside the off… absolutely no doubt that he was out was given notout by Steve Bucknor…. not even 1 in 100 chances are there that such a thing is given notout… and the spiritless Symonds took stayed there…. that was the beginning of the shame and lack of sportsmanspirit creeping in…. Symonds given notout twice when stumped when it clearly appeared that he’s out…. once by a third umpire…. could u believe it…. a third umpire giving a wrong decision…. the guy amassed an unbeaten 167….. and Aussies piled up 463…. in reply Laxman and Sachin showed their class in their centuries….. Ganguly was a bit unlucky to miss out on a century when he threw it away Indians taking a lead of 63 runs…. The test was heading for a tame draw but then again the umpires turning villians and like the

Pune 2 Ahmedabad 2 Pune…. 10 December 2007

Quality: The content as well as Quality of blog is v poor. I deeply regret the inconvenience caused

Part One: Pune 2 Ahmedabad

Scene: Well it was time to reap the fruits of joining the job in Pune…. i.e. rush back 2 ah’d at will…. so even though my knee was like the one of the ugly ogre in Beuwolf, i decided lets give it a go…. eventually meeting family is at the highest priority…. but as usual i m the completely unplanned feet together person looking for guidance…. and ya people always come 2 ur rescue in those cases…. [:)]…. reminds me of my 32 FMPs (http://dkvarma.wordpress.com/2007/06/20/fmp-20-june-2007/ )…. loved it….

anyways my bro told me that i can catch a luxury from a nearby place…. i prefered the sleeper one over volvo as for me 6 feet long bed holds priority over AC volvo seat…. anyways looking back now it was a better option…. as my fro journey was in a volvo and was really not good…. 300 extra bucks spend for not getting place 2 sleep…. thats what i can say right now…. The bus left around 7 PM and i was into my cabin on first floor… best time 2 sleep and contemplate…. and think of the romantic situation…. someday i’ll surely travel in a similar sleeper with my wife in the double bed bus…. truly speaking it might be one of the biggest and cheapest fantasies one can think of…. coming back…. marriage is still 4 yrs away….

All i thought in the evening was the lovely moonlight sky…. reminded me of jyotsna…. damn me but it can’t be taken away from me…. call it luck by chance or serendipity or whatever…. i met someone who had similar fighting passion for life…. this beautiful girl was a gujju doing job in pune and living just besides my school…. but the thing that stood out was her boldness…. she boasted of it a couple of times but nothing wrong in it…. i m really happy that gujju girls too r fighting it out in the sun…. pretty impressed by her idea of self sponsering her marriage…. her dad must be a proud person….

Coming back to 7th evening…. standing below moonlight on a highway…. cool breeze blowing by…. some distant vehicles coming and going…. in the background far away i could listen to some of the songs being played in ‘dhaba’…. cool immaculate moonlight bathing the soothing night breeze…. a welcome break from hectic daily hubbub of the city…. missed my Karizma…. zooming around on that road and using the raw power generated by its 225 cc engine is a passion which will be fulfilled in near future…. highway nights roxx

the next day i woke up around 6 am and comforted myself by placing my aching ___ into the desi sofa seat below…. for couple of hours it was usual siteseeing the highway and side by side reading the server-client connection document of Gemfire…. a bit of reading was required for me to get the knowhow of the functionalities…. can’t help myself from my bookwormish attitude…. Around 8.30 it was a homely stop on one of the gujju dhabas…. after many months i cherished bhajia and chai…. i think it was this time only when i started talking to this Powerpuff gujju girl…. but its for one’s own good health to be away from a girl…. and someone like this one…. its a must no no….

reached home around 11.30 and asked pa to come 2 paldi….

(incomplete part 2)

About Me…. the credulous Gujju

I have no doubt that even though i m 23 years of age the child inside me is the main actor. I like to play games, roam around, ponder about things that a kid likes, take challenges…. I know that people like doing it but from my experience i have come to know that i have the passion for these a little more that what a normal guy has…. Guys generally are supposed to be adventure freaks but i find myself to be crossing the limit each time…. Whether it be FMPs or driving or TT or even office….

Only an external person can analyse whether its ok or not but from my point of view one thing which i can take advantage of is that I am malleable…. Am a lot more flexible than most of other guys…. I know that I am credulous and get easily excited by the near happenings… E.g. for a couple of days after an F1 race, it seems like the jam-packed Bangalore streets are a part of SilverStone circuit… E.g. I feel like when’ll i meet my Kate Benkinsale of Serendipity movie…. or after seeing Basic Instinct 2 one feels that the world is full of bitches and the best thing one can do is become a misogynist or brahmachari and never have the door ajar for any girl to come into one’s life…. Its like a DCH’s Saif Ali Khan type personality where he likes each and every girl he comes in contact with…. Me too am waiting for that Sonali of mine to come…. lets c…. notable difference between saif of DCH and me is that he managed to make good friends with them but in my case ‘ladkhiya ghas ka ek patta bhi nahi daalti’ kya kare…. Gulshan grover style personality jo hai

If someone has had patience to read this much, then he/she must have realized that by ‘normal’ standards i m a weirdo who doesn’t even have the sense of what one should write publicly and what one shouldn’t…. i have had this conversation for hours with my friends who ask me to be a little prudent with what i write…. my reply has been pretty straight and simple…. i don’t like to present any facades or masks…. i be what i m…. like it or not this is what i am…. Vulgarly open…. i don’t like to be Dr Jekyll…. Mr Hyde is fine for me so one thing you can expect from all my blogs is honesty….

Cheers as always Always have quality time

Michael Schumacher the god…. Raikkonen demi-god….

I doubt if anyone will disagree if i say that Michael Schumacher was the best thing to have happened ever to Formula 1 before 2007. Seeing the 2007 season i think that Michael has some serious contenders to deal with now…. A rookie formula one racer, who has the same passion and talent that Michael had, missed out the championship unfortunately by a single point…. Kimi Raikkonen coming of age showing great maturity and living up to his nickname ‘Ice-man’ and being v cool and calm in most of the situation and snatched the F1 title from hands of Mclaren at the very last moment…. Alonso too showed in most of the races that he’s ready to take the stage as a matured and experienced driver and has amassed lots of points for Mclaren even though there might be the case that the team was not supporting him 100%…. The guy showed his class in the European Grand Prix when he overtook Felipe Massa during the closing stages of the race…. All in all i think that this particular season is one of the best if not the best season that F1 has ever faced….  Michael must have relished being around and competing in this scenario

The season started with a lot of passion and promise as Hamilton started his career finishing on podium in all the initial races and was leading the championship The guy showed the maturity mixed with aggression that F1 fans have been witnessing since long from Michael Schumacher. He’s an ideal successor to micheal. I was thrilled to see him win the Canadian Grand Prix. Anyone’s first win is always very very special and the emotions run high…. The guy showed in previous races that he had in him all the ingredients to become a very good F1 driver…. Now it was achieved…. I guess that was the time when the masala flavor was added to the 2007 season…. Alonso gradually realized that the biggest challenger for his F1 title was his own teammate and also found that the British team has started to support the rookie more…. Even though Ferraris were off the pace in mid season the climax always stayed at peak as the two Mclaren drivers fought among themselves for the title…. Ferrari data found with Mclaren…. Alonso blackmailing Ron Denis that he should be the one who should be supported by the team…. One couldn’t have asked for more drama….

Concurrently Ferraris too found the space in which they could just manage to improve so that atleast Raikkonen had a glimmer of hope to challenge for the driver’s title…. Luck ran out of Massa’s Car but everyone in Ferrari camp knows that the guy has potential to be a very successful F1 driver…. He has his flaws which needs to be corrected but there are loads of positives…. The end races that Raikkonen drove were simply awesome…. The sheer consistency he showed No wonder he carries with him the maximum fan following…. Iceman has a distinct class to be admirably calm in most critical moments…. All one can say after Lewis slipped of the track at the Pit-lane entry in Chinese Grand Prix is that experience is important…. there is no doubt in anyone’s mind that the guy has as much talent as any in the Formula one circuit but their is no replacement to experience and unfortunately Hamilton learned it the hard way….

All in all as a Formula one fan i can say that it was victory for F1 as a whole…. the year has brought a new life and energy which no-one might have expected after Michael retirement…. Cheers for Raikkonen

Linking Park…….

Hats off to Linking Park…. not only hat, my shirt pant clothes everything…. i might sound vulgar or obscene but i just can’t imagine the pains one might have to go through had LP not been there….  Just watch this video :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9-eAYHooUo&NR=1    (Crawling)

and you will realize why i say so…. I have met people who have had very hard times and its not always that the inner strength is capable to take you out of difficult situations….. I personally too on 7 occasions atleast have been in that phase…. All you think at that time is that the world is shit and there is not point to be going…. mind becomes storehouse of crap…. all u speak is rubbish and the defeatist inside you takes control…. world looks gloomy…. i have had a close shave some days back to this defeatist inside me and unfortunately i passed quite a bit of my gloom to my parents who couldn’t sleep till 4AM that day…. i m dumb, idiot, moron, stupid…. i know…. but at that time the brain is so fucked up that all one thinks is complete shit…. now sitting back and contemplating on what i should have done, i realize that i committed a blunder – equivalent to the two i committed during my college days….

Music has the ability to melodiously pull the person out of the deepest of glooms and dump him at a higher platform from where he can try to think beyond shit…. He gets the opportunity to have a glimpse of positive things around…. Its like the crap in the mind has been vacuum cleaned because of seeing the video…. one feels that the close one/ support required by each in the fighting times is there and so it brings about psychological stability and peace….

Think of LP’s Numb or LP’s In the end…. One step closer…. Papercut…. Somewhere I belong…. and the ultimate – What I’ve done…. these guys have the talent to find generically the emotional nerve thats malfunctioning and meticulously repair it and being in the sense back to the person….

Cranberries and Dolores too have the feel but still personal preference goes to LP…. Sir Thank you very much…. You have provided to the world the elixir which helps in any kind of breakup….

Butterfly Effect…. Drinking mineral water => accussed in Terrorist Activity (17 October)

The lunch in our office is of same standard as the work here – Pathetic. We help ourselves by taking lunch in nearby Mittal Towers where a shop named Tango servers decent North Indian Combos. Another motivation of going to that place is the owner of the shop who carries out her responsibilities with attitude. I somehow tend to like and appreciate every woman with attitude. The situation is similar to DCH’s Saif urf Sameer who just can’t control himself and commits to whichever girl he gets in touch with. The only difference being that the girls in my case show apathy and stay away as much as possible I can’t help it. This is reality.

Coming back to topic. Ya we had a nice lunch and a bottle of Kinley Mineral water as i had to fit the amount in terms of my Sudexho Coupons (32X). I am the one who enjoys his lunch to the max and hence take  maximum time to finish. I took the bottle with me and was drinking the water along the way. Reminded me of Dharmendra in Sholey where he roams around with a bottle in his hand and drinking at will. I came out with others and the bottle was completed when we were walking past HSBC bank. I found a cool dustbin placed just beside the garden of HSBC. I dumped the bottle inside the dustbin. When i looked up i found the security personnel looking at me with suspicious eyes. Eyes were similar to Crazy eyes with Avinash usually shows. It was like the guy thought that i am a terrorist who just threw in the dustbin a bottle-bomb….

For 5/10 seconds i was just lost in the consequences which might be if something happened today here. Think of a case something wrong happens outside and the guard points out to the police that he suspected me. I didn’t even have the bill for the food we ate All the horrible bollywood scenes of torture by Police flashed before me. How the hell am i going to defend myself? Dande pe dande, dande pe dande. Friends turn foe. I loose my job. My identity, character everything is tarnished. Its like Indian team on score 32/4 in 12 overs – basically nothing can be done from this stage.

Suddenly i came out of my dream and i was still looking at the security personnel who was now rushing towards me, shouting in Kannad. The only word i could understand was ‘Parking’. I looked behind me and found an auto rickshaw parked just in front of the No Parking board opposite the main gate of the bank. The security person rushed to the auto rickshaw driver. Close escape   I am chicken-hearted

Men in Blue 26 September 2007

The biggest achievement in this decade for the Indian team came just a couple of days back when they narrowly pipped ahead of Pakistan to win the 20 20 WC. To be frank both teams deserved to win but in the end Indians were lucky. My complete sympathies for Misbah-ul-Haq. The rookie played out of his skin to get his team one shot away from victory but just couldn’t deliver the final blow. On the contrary Indian team performed more or less like the New Zealand team i.e. to get the max out of limited resources. It was path having with great milestones being achieved including crushing victories against South Africa and Australia and 2 narrow defeats for Pakistan.

All said and done but in the celebrations one should not forget that fight might be over but battle is not won yet. We have now a very shrewd and calm leader in form of MS Dhoni and a young side which could be groomed to yield rich dividends. 20 20 might be a great milestone but important thing is to raise the game to the next level. Whether it be victory or defeat, true winner is the one who takes positives from both and tries to rectify the mistakes. India should look to imitate Sri Lankan team after 96 world cup – how suddenly they raised their game and stayed there.

Rest all is mundane. Shahrukh’s cheap publicity stunt to promote his film ‘Om Shanti Om’ at the venue. Politicians trying to gain as much limelight as possible from the players. Hockey team (that won Asia Cup flawlessly) was meted out with step-motherly treatment and so on…. But one thing that I personally can’t forgive is the comments by Shoaib Malik at the presentation. “I thank all the muslims around the world”. What cheap statement is that. One should understand that u are the captain of a nation- representative of your country. Its a sport and one is not permitted to polarize communal tensions. A true Hindu or a true muslim or of any religion who supported Pakistan must be thinking now that what low-valued team it was supporting. Sportsman spirit is the key and anyone who doesn’t have has no right to play and bring chagrin to the game.

Causes and After effects of “failure in code build”

After loads and loads of effort going in for 2 days someday out of nowhere u land up with an error where u don’t know why the code is not undergoing build…. luckily there was no deadline as such but it doesn’t look nice to have some work extending beyond its required time…. even though u might not be taking it pretty lightly but to the lead who is 80% time away from his seat it might look that u are taking his freedom pretty casually…. i have been of late taking it casually…. i admit…. but its frustrating when u put in some 4/5 hours of days time just to make ur code work…. its better to be stuck with something that u have done rather than being stuck somewhere where u don’t know whats wrong….. actually it feels good when u solve some problem of urs…. there’s always something to learn but to find bugs…. its painful…. simply painful…. some build path changes or some jar update…. there are always some fundas ingrained with some problem but they are so deeply rooted that its difficult to expose them….

Anyways luckily my problem is solved and somehow…. i don’t know how my problem is solved and i m getting that awaited message “Build Successful”…. so now its time to do my testing and my modifications…. somehow i dont feel the work to be clicking…. i need to find it why…. but i guess the definition of job is “doing monotonic uninteresting and unwilling work”…. well everyone in this world is after money and unfortunately so am I…. referring to the Frustopia syndrome i guess people in this (incomplete)

One of my first loves

4 June 2007

There were days when i had a 8 year old kinetic with me…. no front brakes…. even the accelerator wire broke couple of times…. front suspension gone…. seat cover in all tatters…. but it was real fun sliding between traffic and going in front…. 5.4 km of ashram road traffic 8 traffic signals and it took around 15/20 minutes to reach school…. that too without too much fast driving…. i love that kinetic and was careful that i do not put much pressure on the engine…. hence i used to drive max upto 50 kmph and i guess it was not advisable to drive it beyond that speed in such situation…. there were times where i had 1 accident/day…. nothing major but little touches here and there…. i had only one major accident with that kinetic where there were 3 cars ramming into each other and my kinetic last…. luckily there was nothing behind me or else it might have been the end for me…. no serious injury for me but the front nose of kinetic had to be changed i.e. expense worth 200 bucks…. but i loved driving the way i did…. it was sheer pleasure to drive past the traffic and feeling free…. it was something which i felt was mine and i gradually learned controlling it at will…. “I felt alive”….I felt similar to harry potter on his firebolt…. where I could maneuver kinetic in the best possible way…. that learning curve has helped a lot…. having Karizma now i m upgraded thats for sure but i couldn’t have driven karizma to the limit as i do had i not trusted that kinetic and driven it to its limits…. Finally i can say the driving the kinetic to the limit was stepping stone in my driving karizma gracefully….

If time permits I’ll like to take a week off and go for some short ‘South Bharat Yatra’ exploring tourist destinations on this bike…. there r couple of prerequisites which are hard to find but lets c…. dreams keep one going (ah another topic for blog… cool i have something for tomorrow )…. Lets c…. if i find some friends with desire to drill it out and passion to conquer the road then this dream might come true…. and ya…. if u were looking for answers to my first loves it was driving

Initialization

 

Ah….. Cool site….

thanks Raghoo(Raghuram) for enlightening me about a cool site as this one….

hmm for all the readers general precautions….. this an out of the material world guy writing about wat he feels about everything and how the bigger and practical world receives an amateur….

some things are deliberately expected to be pathetic so bad PJs r most likely to happen chill maadi

CandleLight Shower….

7/4/07

It was the luxury of great sultans in ancient times…. but thanks to bangalore’s intermittent supply of electricity now its become a routine for people like me who have dark bathrooms to enjoy candlelight shower…. the soothing light takes the limelight from daily life for sometime and takes people into those imaginary worlds and gives them a feel of what those kings enjoyed centuries ago…. the outermost layer of candle is blazing hot around 1200 degrees…. looks like its gonna convert anything that comes near it to black ash…. the inner blue layer around 30/40 degrees is pleasing…. its cool, charming, relaxing…. Candlelight shower is perfect opportunity to relish that comfortable feeling…. not by trying to touch the blue flame but getting those comfortable thoughts out and enjoying them….

All u want is a cool bathtub & …. well everything has a perfect time i guess…. lets wait n watch…. reminds me of a dialogue of DDLJ where SRK tells Kajol about his dream girl who’ll come out of clouds….”Pata nahi kab yeh baadal hatenge”

My country’s present and future….

Most of the ‘bakar’ of guys like us revolve either around the present situation, politics, sports or love affairs/frustrations All the time we think about cricket a question comes into our mind that if New Zealand with a population of 4 million can make it large why we with 250 times its population(could be even more) cant do it or cant do it on a consistent basis… the answers are pretty simple but hard to accept…. lots of politics…. poverty…. poor infrastructure(lack of facilities)….

With so many fighting it out to get that last piece of bread, resources per head r too less…. the basic requirement of this large population itself covers up the whole budget and we are left with only compromises to make…. basic education, infrastructure, water, health are the key issues with which we have to deal with a high priority…. the situation is like i m crossing the Hooghly river in calcutta in a boat meant to carry 20 guys and somehow 50 have been accomodated with 45 of them unfit to row the boat so there is burden on the whole lot…. the 5 guys feel that are being exploited and the others just dont understand wats going wrong…. actually ignorance is the biggest hurdle we have to overcome if India needs to be something near to a developed country…. enlighten people about the current situation…. spreading education (doesn’t matter even if its sex education) just give the people the right knowledge which makes them understand whats write and whats wrong…. fights based on religion, caste, language, region need to be stopped fast(which i’ll discuss subsequently)…. we have abundance of one of the biggest resource required in an industry….. manpower…. lets use it to the fullest…. atleast we can imitate China’s strategy in becoming a global manufacturing hub….

The reality is, as we all know, that the resources are stagnant and population is increasing…. i.e. each one has to fight more to get his share…. and this fight has been continuing from quite some time…. its evolved and become more sophisticated and all one can think of is his/her own benefit…. its the same political drama…. the parties turn up to just anything to get votes…. and its not just one party its every party…. some follow Hindutva agenda…. some allow Bangladeshis to come in, just to increase the vote bank…. when a voter is about to cast a vote he’s just trying to select the best donkey of the pack who is only interested in eating that green grass…. politics has become such a big pool of shit that its just not possible to expect something positive coming out of it…. there r few fighters who try their level best to clean up the mess but the numbers r just too less…. v all r greedy people similar to stray dogs who fight for that last piece of flesh….

i really question god’s will of choosing mankind as the best species…. there will be no wonder if life on earth will cease in some 150/200 years…. dinos got extinct but didn’t do damage to other stuffs as atmosphere, water, etc…. but with mankind allz being destroyed beyond repair…. all v can repair is either our materialistic stuffs or some human parts to make people live and damage stuffs even more…. 150 also seems too far make it max 3/4 more generations…. somewhere in universe there’ll be another planet where evolution must have been taking place and it’ll take earths position in future….

“Propel, Propel, Propel your craft
Placidly down the liquid solution
Ecstatically, ecstatically, ecstatically, ecstatically,
Existence is but an illusion “