Confessions of a ______ mind

October 23, 2007

Michael Schumacher the god…. Raikkonen demi-god….

Filed under: Uncategorized — deep varma @ 12:07 pm

I doubt if anyone will disagree if i say that Michael Schumacher was the best thing to have happened ever to Formula 1 before 2007. Seeing the 2007 season i think that Michael has some serious contenders to deal with now…. A rookie formula one racer, who has the same passion and talent that Michael had, missed out the championship unfortunately by a single point…. Kimi Raikkonen coming of age showing great maturity and living up to his nickname ‘Ice-man’ and being v cool and calm in most of the situation and snatched the F1 title from hands of Mclaren at the very last moment…. Alonso too showed in most of the races that he’s ready to take the stage as a matured and experienced driver and has amassed lots of points for Mclaren even though there might be the case that the team was not supporting him 100%…. The guy showed his class in the European Grand Prix when he overtook Felipe Massa during the closing stages of the race…. All in all i think that this particular season is one of the best if not the best season that F1 has ever faced….  Michael must have relished being around and competing in this scenario :)

The season started with a lot of passion and promise as Hamilton started his career finishing on podium in all the initial races and was leading the championship :) The guy showed the maturity mixed with aggression that F1 fans have been witnessing since long from Michael Schumacher. He’s an ideal successor to micheal. I was thrilled to see him win the Canadian Grand Prix. Anyone’s first win is always very very special and the emotions run high…. The guy showed in previous races that he had in him all the ingredients to become a very good F1 driver…. Now it was achieved…. I guess that was the time when the masala flavor was added to the 2007 season…. Alonso gradually realized that the biggest challenger for his F1 title was his own teammate and also found that the British team has started to support the rookie more…. Even though Ferraris were off the pace in mid season the climax always stayed at peak as the two Mclaren drivers fought among themselves for the title…. Ferrari data found with Mclaren…. Alonso blackmailing Ron Denis that he should be the one who should be supported by the team…. One couldn’t have asked for more drama….

Concurrently Ferraris too found the space in which they could just manage to improve so that atleast Raikkonen had a glimmer of hope to challenge for the driver’s title…. Luck ran out of Massa’s Car but everyone in Ferrari camp knows that the guy has potential to be a very successful F1 driver…. He has his flaws which needs to be corrected but there are loads of positives…. The end races that Raikkonen drove were simply awesome…. The sheer consistency he showed :) No wonder he carries with him the maximum fan following…. Iceman has a distinct class to be admirably calm in most critical moments…. All one can say after Lewis slipped of the track at the Pit-lane entry in Chinese Grand Prix is that experience is important…. there is no doubt in anyone’s mind that the guy has as much talent as any in the Formula one circuit but their is no replacement to experience and unfortunately Hamilton learned it the hard way….

All in all as a Formula one fan i can say that it was victory for F1 as a whole…. the year has brought a new life and energy which no-one might have expected after Michael retirement…. Cheers for Raikkonen ;)

October 21, 2007

Ogling Eyes

Filed under: My View, Psychology/Philosophy — deep varma @ 10:43 am

Every individual is different…. We are born different…. Brought up differently in different locations, imbibed with different values and knowledge…. Some are born handsome like Tom Cruise, Brad Pitt or Aish…. while some, how hard they try end up being just a bit above Gunda…. somewhere its good that  we all are different but in some places its painful to imagine…. Think of the dumb Hritik Roshan in Koi Mil gaya…. what the hell was his fault that the poor chap is dumb and his brain  naive…. somewhere one has to question that by what qualities does he decide whether the new born should be born to a king or a prince??? wats the role of the pawns like me and you who are wasting their time and energy sitting in front of the desktop doing some monotonic work???? Why is one a successful ShahRukhKhan and why one just no-one in this world…. Truly speaking in this world there is absolutely no difference between people who are born poor and the stray dogs and cats who are there…. History itself has proved that…. loads of people die in natural calamities (Gujarat Earthquakes, Bihar floods, Tsunamis) still noone cares…. not even the people who belong to the region- MLAs, Politicians, Business Tycoons…. absolutely no-one…. I think that during Tsunami the headlines of Aaj Tak channel ussed to be “Vivek Oberoi comes to Chennai and help people physically in getting their lives back on track” !!!!

Coming back…. The title….. Ogling Eyes…. My friend Suresh Prasad urf Bihari told that Akhil has one of the most ogling eyes and after that its my turn…. i too have one of the most ogling eyes…. he said that girls around must be definately feeling that my intensions are not right when i see them…. How can i help myself???? Eyes are something on which I do not have control…. I am rather happy and thankful to god that i have a good pair of eyes even though I have glasses and all…. but the ogling feeling that girls might be getting is something i can’t help…. I have missed the bus on 7 occasions now, the latest being a few days back and i guess this reason holds one of the keys for me not been able to pull off my relationships well…. All that girl feels in that moment is asking this ‘kutta kamina’ questions like ‘ghar main ma/bahen nahi kya?’…. If one looks at the other side of the coin, its not her fault too….

Before i started to write the blog i had loads of points that why ogling eyes are cool but somehow i just can’t recall any of them…. i guess the past has again captured my thinking brain and all for sometime now i m gonna think is why i just couldn’t do much in each of these cases….

Well one of the latest gossips in bollywood is the love triangle between Kareena, Saif, Shahid…. The celebrities have the freedom to do whatever they want to or to be with whom-so-ever they want themselves to be associated with…. Saif- who married Amrita Singh (Why the hell did she fell for him??? Nawabi wealth??? Is money more imp than ……???) who was at the peak of her carrier – proper bubbly and sweetheart character…. but nowadays share prices of Nawab himself have rose and so Amrita is a no no now…. forget the kids…. now he has new chicks like Roza and Kareena available…. who wants a dedicated Amrita??? Kareena…. when she was no one, she found a hubby in Shahid whom i respect as a self-made person…. and now that guy is a dumped person…. And these are the kind of people we consider role models :)

Physical beauty can only be superficial….

I love RBK line “I am what i am”…. holds loads of statements inside :)

Linking Park…….

Filed under: Uncategorized — deep varma @ 10:07 am

Hats off to Linking Park…. not only hat, my shirt pant clothes everything…. i might sound vulgar or obscene but i just can’t imagine the pains one might have to go through had LP not been there….  Just watch this video :

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B9-eAYHooUo&NR=1    (Crawling)

and you will realize why i say so…. I have met people who have had very hard times and its not always that the inner strength is capable to take you out of difficult situations….. I personally too on 7 occasions atleast have been in that phase…. All you think at that time is that the world is shit and there is not point to be going…. mind becomes storehouse of crap…. all u speak is rubbish and the defeatist inside you takes control…. world looks gloomy…. i have had a close shave some days back to this defeatist inside me and unfortunately i passed quite a bit of my gloom to my parents who couldn’t sleep till 4AM that day…. i m dumb, idiot, moron, stupid…. i know…. but at that time the brain is so fucked up that all one thinks is complete shit…. now sitting back and contemplating on what i should have done, i realize that i committed a blunder – equivalent to the two i committed during my college days….

Music has the ability to melodiously pull the person out of the deepest of glooms and dump him at a higher platform from where he can try to think beyond shit…. He gets the opportunity to have a glimpse of positive things around…. Its like the crap in the mind has been vacuum cleaned because of seeing the video…. one feels that the close one/ support required by each in the fighting times is there and so it brings about psychological stability and peace….

Think of LP’s Numb or LP’s In the end…. One step closer…. Papercut…. Somewhere I belong…. and the ultimate – What I’ve done…. these guys have the talent to find generically the emotional nerve thats malfunctioning and meticulously repair it and being in the sense back to the person….

Cranberries and Dolores too have the feel but still personal preference goes to LP…. Sir Thank you very much…. You have provided to the world the elixir which helps in any kind of breakup….

October 17, 2007

Butterfly Effect…. Drinking mineral water => accussed in Terrorist Activity (17 October)

Filed under: Uncategorized — deep varma @ 8:50 am

The lunch in our office is of same standard as the work here – Pathetic. We help ourselves by taking lunch in nearby Mittal Towers where a shop named Tango servers decent North Indian Combos. Another motivation of going to that place is the owner of the shop who carries out her responsibilities with attitude. I somehow tend to like and appreciate every woman with attitude. The situation is similar to DCH’s Saif urf Sameer who just can’t control himself and commits to whichever girl he gets in touch with. The only difference being that the girls in my case show apathy and stay away as much as possible :) I can’t help it. This is reality.

Coming back to topic. Ya we had a nice lunch and a bottle of Kinley Mineral water as i had to fit the amount in terms of my Sudexho Coupons (32X). I am the one who enjoys his lunch to the max and hence take  maximum time to finish. I took the bottle with me and was drinking the water along the way. Reminded me of Dharmendra in Sholey where he roams around with a bottle in his hand and drinking at will. I came out with others and the bottle was completed when we were walking past HSBC bank. I found a cool dustbin placed just beside the garden of HSBC. I dumped the bottle inside the dustbin. When i looked up i found the security personnel looking at me with suspicious eyes. Eyes were similar to Crazy eyes with Avinash usually shows. It was like the guy thought that i am a terrorist who just threw in the dustbin a bottle-bomb….

For 5/10 seconds i was just lost in the consequences which might be if something happened today here. Think of a case something wrong happens outside and the guard points out to the police that he suspected me. I didn’t even have the bill for the food we ate :( All the horrible bollywood scenes of torture by Police flashed before me. How the hell am i going to defend myself? Dande pe dande, dande pe dande. Friends turn foe. I loose my job. My identity, character everything is tarnished. Its like Indian team on score 32/4 in 12 overs – basically nothing can be done from this stage.

Suddenly i came out of my dream and i was still looking at the security personnel who was now rushing towards me, shouting in Kannad. The only word i could understand was ‘Parking’. I looked behind me and found an auto rickshaw parked just in front of the No Parking board opposite the main gate of the bank. The security person rushed to the auto rickshaw driver. Close escape :P   I am chicken-hearted :)

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