Because of one reason or the other i somehow can’t forget my college days. When i was in college i couldn’t forget my school days. Nostalgia is bad as it takes away from u the opportunity to cherish the present. In college i was enjoying everything to awesome limits – Cricket, chess, Comp games, indian cricket matches, FMPs …. but i missed my home and so was little upset at that time. I had a ball with friends out there and the final year was simply awesome. Though the clearing BTP and other courses were hard won battles and were most frightening at times but it was one of the best times.
Right now at work I find people. Pardon me i do not meet people, I meet resources who do mundane work daily – according to our technical director. We all are resources who are being juggled around by the management at will. I find people submissively accepting whatever task is being assigned to them only because they get decent money. The only difference between majority of lot(who do mundane work) and those who are in jail is that we here have freedom to roam outside in world and are paid much more than what jail-mates are being paid. I know its not judicious to compare the two but the ‘work’ we do and they do in the 9 hours/day must be similar- Mundane.
Another different thing that i find in this ‘professional’ world is that people around are not living the way they wana live but rather live it from a different perspective. E.g. my group includes 5 people – Avinash, Amita, Bihari (suresh), Baba (Rohan) and me. I don’t know much about Amita neither about what girls think or do. I guess the most successful relationship handler must be the one who is closest to understanding whats going on in the girls mind most accurately. Coming back to the topic, we all of late have started to take lunch together as Amita will be leaving us and going to US after marriage. All the best to her and may she get all that she expects
but the guys around including myself are not the same when she’s around. I know that one’s got to change the ways a little when one has a girl in the company but this much wasn’t called for. We all are bankrupt people but in her presence its like that we have won ourselves a lottery. Spending 1000 bucks each day on an average on lunch isn’t called for. I know people might say that the gujju nature is inherent but i don’t think that this time I am wrong in what I think. We know that Amita’s leaving but did we do the same when PK was leaving or Ashish was leaving. Did everyone shell out when these guys left us. I know she won’t be coming back and has marriage and all but somehow the girl funda is coming in. I personally don’t think that this is fair. The internal khichdi is well known and the girl deserves it but somehow the double standards that we all have adopted don’t sound appropriate to me.
Frankly speaking i don’t feel comfortable here as i have been a person who has always followed games and action and those have been the source for all events around. I have never been around a girl so don’t know what to do or what not when one’s around and that i guess amita too must be knowing well. But i have never tried to be someone else when she’s around or she’s not. I never tried to change my ways and try to create that ‘good boy’ image. Rather I did that which i thought was correct everytime. whether it be making fun of myself for my frugality or my passion for food and games or whatever. I know one thing that she doesn’t like me sitting besides but neither do i like to see someone uncomfortable because of me and am very sorry for changing my seat. Don’t know where i went in this blog but I don’t like the way people around live their lives. One more thing that came to light about people is that they don’t refrain from making fun of others even though the one might be sorry for making the mistake. ‘Mauka mile maar lo’. I know that its a way to crack a joke but for me its no fun. One is psyche if he/she likes to take fun out of ridiculing someone else. That i realized after Bheja Fry. That all are just brick in the wall. Ladki dikhi aur jo woh bole kare woh sahi. No wonder i don’t have a girlfriend but now i think it is better this way. Atleast I am a good human being.


